Wednesday, December 19, 2007
sigh.
i tink.
is becos..
the previous r/s is a huge blow to me..
tats y..
im blinded by everything..
i even dream tat..
he is totally a different guy..
gals around him
arent he fortunate?
im jus like..
doing everything.
cos of HIM. leslie teng.
i noe its not worth..
but i wanna prove him something..
i dunno wad to prove..
but to make him think tat.
he had done me wrong..
i dunno why im so selfish..
but.. whenever i saw couples..
all my thoughts .. my heart.
sank..
maybe.. ur will think.
i dont have guys will die meh..
nO.. i wont..
jus tat. i used to be attached for 1yr6mths...
it isnt SHORT TERM. its a LONG TERM...
n.. after the hurt i get from him.
if it appears another guy who can pick me up from the ground..
where i've hurt deeply from..
its worth to be happy for..
though i noe..
even the other guy..
MAY NOT give u the happiness for long...
but..
i jus dunno wad decision should i made..
honestly..
not becos of leslie..
i wont be like tat..
he brought me to this state..
he hurts me..
he can be so.. cruel to me.
tats y.
my every thinkingss changes...
u noe..
i cant be strong..
i tried to look forward.
realli.. i did..
but the things that i look forward..
didnt get the approval from my frenss...
haiz...
my life..
is soo hard.. soo miserable..
why it will turn out to be like this..
why liying.. is no longer the liying..
leslie.
no matter how mani times u've said sorry..
it wont helps..
no matter how mani times u've ask do i hate u.
my answer will always be a NO..
thanks to u..
u've changed my life..
to the other..
more complicated one..
as u said.
u not worth for me..
neither do i..
worth for u..
im jus a piece of useless shit..
im jus a hopeless person..
im jus too stubborn..
tat is why..
i have this ending..
i tink.
is becos..
the previous r/s is a huge blow to me..
tats y..
im blinded by everything..
i even dream tat..
he is totally a different guy..
gals around him
arent he fortunate?
im jus like..
doing everything.
cos of HIM. leslie teng.
i noe its not worth..
but i wanna prove him something..
i dunno wad to prove..
but to make him think tat.
he had done me wrong..
i dunno why im so selfish..
but.. whenever i saw couples..
all my thoughts .. my heart.
sank..
maybe.. ur will think.
i dont have guys will die meh..
nO.. i wont..
jus tat. i used to be attached for 1yr6mths...
it isnt SHORT TERM. its a LONG TERM...
n.. after the hurt i get from him.
if it appears another guy who can pick me up from the ground..
where i've hurt deeply from..
its worth to be happy for..
though i noe..
even the other guy..
MAY NOT give u the happiness for long...
but..
i jus dunno wad decision should i made..
honestly..
not becos of leslie..
i wont be like tat..
he brought me to this state..
he hurts me..
he can be so.. cruel to me.
tats y.
my every thinkingss changes...
u noe..
i cant be strong..
i tried to look forward.
realli.. i did..
but the things that i look forward..
didnt get the approval from my frenss...
haiz...
my life..
is soo hard.. soo miserable..
why it will turn out to be like this..
why liying.. is no longer the liying..
leslie.
no matter how mani times u've said sorry..
it wont helps..
no matter how mani times u've ask do i hate u.
my answer will always be a NO..
thanks to u..
u've changed my life..
to the other..
more complicated one..
as u said.
u not worth for me..
neither do i..
worth for u..
im jus a piece of useless shit..
im jus a hopeless person..
im jus too stubborn..
tat is why..
i have this ending..
where we could have been, 8:04 AM.
